Ranting #21

Pain

I'm tortured by this pain that is developing within me...

this pain made me learn that i'm still alive... that i'm still on middle earth... not in heaven or hell... but this pain made me feel like hell...
maybe this pain is meant to make me stronger... make me strong enough to face other forms of pain and torture... what doesn't kill you will just make you stronger...

i wish i could just drop onto the floor and roll in pain with tears in my eyes... no doubt it will pain those who loved me... but this pain is just too hard to bear for me...
i miss those times when i did just that and my mom seem to understand my pain and suffering and brought me things that could help relieve the pain a little... little tots help... and i'm simply grateful to her...

now i have to face the pain all by myself... alone...

p.s. painkillers dun kill the pain... they just make the pain bearable...