Random tots #23

Guilty

feeling real guilty now cos i din attend my uni class outing today even though i had the intention of going... even dressed for the occasion... din even make the effort to email my class abt me going/not going... haiz... felt real bad after reading the emails sent by the class...
why didn't i go u might ask... think one of the lamest reason i can give was that i was supposed to visit mudpie at his shop then go over to join them for dinner... but mudpie last minute had tummyache and wanted to go home so me never go his shop and went back home straight... lame i know... but that's what really happened... cos their meeting time was 7 plus but i can reach the meeting place at 5.30 and i didn wanna go shop ard... haiz... guilty...

come to think of it... i had never really attended any one of their gatherings... think that time i was working part time and not able to go for any... i'm really not close with the class... maybe i shld make an effort to go for gatherings in future... be more onz and get to know the class better...

realised i'm becoming more and more like a hermit ever since JC... lost the ability to make friends... or at least to have a big bunch of friends like the others... haiz... maybe i should not keep to myself anymore... haiz... can anyone bring me out of my shell?

really guilty today... regret... haiz...