Ranting #38

Dreams and Reality

"I just realised I have throat cancer... how did this happen? I do not smoke, drink or eat too many fried food... what causes it? It cannot be hereditary as there's no one in the entire family tree who have this disease...

Just went to the doc for a checkup again... seems to be getting worse... what's worse will be the fact that i have to hide this from almost everyone... i cannot let anyone that i love know this painful truth... what should i do? suffer in silence all alone? "

that's the dream i had yesterday... why did i have a dream lidat? is that an indication of something terribly wrong with me? I have always guessed that there's something wrong with me somewhere... haven been to a thorough body checkup yet... maybe one fine day i shld go... even peifang suggested that i shld go for one... as she thinks i look painfully skinny lately...

been pretty sad lately cos my camera just died... my not even 2 yrs old Ixus II... mudpie said there's something wrong with the lens while i think the problem lies with the digic processor... i never dropped it before... never did anything wrong to it... just died lidat... haiz... guess i've been cursed lately... lost my lappy a few months back and now... it's my camera... haiz... guess my next camera will be sometime later... have to save to mend the big hole after buying this new lappy... then save even more for a new one... but i guess that next one will be a sony...

been reading "the time traveler's wife" by Audrey Niffenegger... a very touching (cried after reading this book... maybe i'm simply too emotional lately...) and romantic novel about a time traveler and his wife... as it's told in the 1st person point by the wife and the time traveler... one can understand their feelings and point of view much better... i'll strongly recommend this book if u have the time to read... better read this while listening to kang kang's bing bian... will definitely make u very touched... this book made me love mudpie much more... to be more understanding and tolerating...

really tired and unmotivated (is there such a word?) lately... pissed with nus admin again... tired as i haven't been getting enuff sleep and starting to feel fatigue... unmotivated esp at work since everyone seems dead at work... it's no longer a lively place... everyone's leaving... or attempting to leave... everything's changed... haiz...

Ranting #37

Busy...

have been real busy lately... not getting enuff rest and stuff... working myself to exhaustion... haiz...
not really though... cos i had a trip to batam with my mahjong kakis (aka joy luck club members) and seirye... had a great seafood dinner and a great day of shopping (not really though)... but think i shld include some fotos too...

let's pray that the 2 of them will not kill me for putting this here... but took this at the ferry terminal... nice 'white' teeth they have...


this is the carpark of the relatively new shopping mall that was opened only a year back (according to seirye lah)... dun u think the carpark looks super dark and the walls and pillars are in a shade of grey... dun look new though...

the beach by which we had our dinner... scenery looks nice here... not mentioning that most parts of batam are in shades of yellowish brown due to deforestation... haiz... but it smells here...

okie... enuff of pix... vinc shld thank me for not putting his pic here... cos nan de i get one of his pix... hahaha... or maybe 2? hahaha...

also... the past few days while i'm MIA, i helped mudpie celebrate his b'day... managed to get busy him to take one day off to help him celebrate... since i let him be king for one day... guess what he did... he simply slept thru half of the day... the other half was spent eating... haiz... really piggy life...

also... met up with peifang last monday... peiling and a few other sec friends on wed... wah... to think abt wednesday... i can only say...

i'm not a virgin anymore...


it's not anybody's fault but my own's... haiz... so sorry... i'm worried that mudpie will be unhappy since my 1st time was not (with) him... yet his 1st was not (with) me though... i did not tell my parents too... and the only thing that i did after i reached home was just to bathe...





just glad that i did not get drunk even after drinking a pint of kilkenny... hahaha... my virgin trip to a pub... harry's @ holland v with peiling and others... haha... actually mudpie let me go willingly cos he knows i can drink better than him... hahaha...

anyway... nothing much lah... but now i'm pretty pissed with NUS admin for neglecting EV students again... imagine having the EV students to take chem eng electives which we do not have much foundation on... haiz... poor us... and oso sad becos mudpie is so so so busy that he neglected his studies... i dunno what i can do to help him... felt so useless... nagging at him to study does not help and will just irritate him... maybe i shld just let him decide what is impt for him...

but what if in future ur child is lidat too? how would u motivate or even urge ur child to study hard? think being parents is a big headache... cos sometimes u cannot control what someone else thinks... haiz...

to end everything on a happier note... here's a pic... photo taken by vinc in a moving car... this explains the blurry photo... but think it's quite nice...

Random tots #37

laziness at its peak

been reading some blogs lately... realised most people changed their blog skins... haha... was actually comtemplating to change mine too... but instead... i came up with a top 5 lame reasons why i will not change the skin...

1. too busy to touch my lappy... let alone face it whole day to try to come up with a new html template for my skin...
2. it's friendly as most stuff are all on one page and u dunnid to click here click there to access the entire blog, links, tagboard etc...
3. no inspiration on any designs for my skin... maybe life has been pretty dull lately...
4. was too lazy to even blog and tot of shutting down this entire blog...
5. lastly... scared that the skin cannot be viewed correctly on either firefox or IE...

yaya... that's why my blog skin is still a boring black background... at least it's better than white which i think is too bright for the eyes right?

think i'll be busy til next year when i graduate... haiz... maybe even more busy after that...

ya... anyone who has one spare tix for the ndp blue sector on the actual day itself? can spare me? thanx a lot leh...

Ranting #36

Growing old

been feeling that my body is getting older... cannot take late nights and cannot function as well as it used to be... i shld be in my prime... why lidat? why leh? just going out into the sun and walking ard gives me headache... really getting old le...

last sat was lele's birthday... he's 2 this year... so young compared to his yee yee... haiz... bought a baby stroller for his baby pooh... he loved it so much that he simply cannot let go of it...

of cos we had a cake for him... and he always kept his eyes on the cake...

and simply refuses to pose for the camera... poor mudpie...


anyway lele's cake is a hazelnut one... pretty nice... actually this is only his 1st cake... there's another one which he will cut with his grandparents from US...

realised that his outfit resembles some handicraft he did for his preschool on that day...

actually his mommy did most of the work... lele just colored it yellow...

anyway... lele's birthday is over... next up will be mudpie's this coming friday... have to take off from work to help him celebrate... will be a one whole day event for him... haha...

here's photos of the nice nice sunset from rawa...

with a nice nice (*puke) me...

realised i'm very flat when viewed sideways... haiz... so sad...


haiz... tired... hope i can save enuff money to go somewhere b4 school starts... but think i oso need to start hitting the books pretty soon... learn to use hysys too... haiz... time to start to tune myself for the fyp le...

Ranting #35

My favorite things

raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens... ...

well... those are not exactly my fav things though... haha... tot of wanting to blog about the things that i love doing at the moment...

well... here's some things that i love doing...

1. to go jog or swim... or just to work out and tell myself that i'm losing weight and toning my muscles at the same time...
2. to sleep on my beloved bed and nua til the lele comes to wake me up...
3. to go shopping with girlfriends or even anyone...
4. to sit on the toilet bowl and *arghz* for a good 10 min...
5. to eat my fav food and not feel sinful abt it...
6. to go out with friends for dinner, to chat or just to play mahjong...
7. to drive, whine and scream all at the same time...
8. lastly... to do simply anything with mudpie... even quarrelling with him as i always learn things from arguments...

well... just had a good mahjong session last night with tax, vinc and juvy... though reach home pretty late but felt good to play mahjong with friends again...

had a pretty bad day today... cos had real bad stomach cramp for the whole day and had to take half day off to rest at home as i forgotten to bring med to work... luckily everyone's been nice to me today and even lele knows i'm in pain and cried when i told him that... sometimes lele is such a dear... of cos not forgetting my beloved mudpie who's constantly worried abt me and is always there for me...

Ranting #34

Busy

have been real busy lately... back at sony to work... so very no life now... haiz...


eh... how come nlb website cannot go in leh? exceed bandwidth cos of the new library or suddenly everyone has the interest to read book?


had a new lappy too... a samsung lappy that weighs only 1.3 kg (with battery) at a very cheap price... super happy... though pretty sad that my wallet now has a big hole... but at least i dunnid to share pc with my bro... happy... and can load more stuff into the new lappy and use firefox instead of IE...


something to share... there's this very chubby (or u can say fat) cat at the market area near my place who simply sleeps with an attitude... took some photos too... even lele was pretty amazed by how the cat sleeps...










ya... here's a photo to tell where rawa is... click on it to open it bigger... the one circled in orange is the rawa island that i went to... pretty near tioman actually...







this the view of rawa from the ferry... see the white letters on the hill... looks like 'hollywood' hor...


see the white strip of sand below the greeneries? that's the only area on that island that is inhabitable... cos the other parts in green are all cliffs... so the area that i can go to is actually very small...

here's some photos to show that the water is crystal clear... think it actually looks like a very big swimming pool but just that the water tastes salty and there are fishes swimming in it...


lotsa fishes come to u when u throw bread to them... parrot fish, blue tang (read: dory), swordfish, and even pomfret and many other colorful fishes...




there are lotsa sea urchins and dead corals around too...



there are more fotos of cos... me and mudpie woke up at 5+ for the sunrise and stayed at the beach during sunset to take great photos and videos too... but too lazy to put them all up now... maybe will be in a random foto post sometime later...

die... me still in holiday mood... but i shld be holidaying mah... but spent a great deal on lappy... haiz... or else i wanna go back langkawi and drive like takumi... haha...